Good Movies and God.

I've noticed something since I became a believer - but a bit of a back story might help you understand a little more.

I love movies. There is very little in this world that I enjoy more than a good movie. I don't know why - and it is much deeper than simple cinematography and special effects - but movies speak to my soul. I thank God for movies, I really do.

But what is it about a movie that is so grand? And, to take it a bit further - how is it possible for me to love movies so much, yet still glorify God and not make them idols?

It's all about the good movie. This is not all movies - and in fact - there have been few truly good movies in my life. A good movie is defined by the feeling it elicits. They are saturated with truth and make your soul cry out.

There is beauty. There is heart. There is truth. There is love. There is emotion. There are a plethora of other things that make you say "Wow" - or maybe just take your breath away.

These are the movies that after you are done watching them, you have to praise God for the universe he created. For the absolute depth he has envisioned and the magnificent wonder of it all.

But these are not all movies. Some movies speak to your soul about the depravity of humanity. There is so much senseless violence in movies it's scary. Other movies just exist to be a movie - they are fun, they're a time away from the world. They're entertainment. These serve their purposes...but these aren't good movies.

Good movies help you worship God. Good movies don't have to be intentional. Good movies have a weight that is almost hard to carry when you've finished them.

They make you cry when you're at your toughest. They make you humble when you've never been more proud. They open your eyes and show you that it - all of this - is SO much bigger than you've ever imagined.

Good movies show you God - and sometimes they don't even know it.

Unleashed.

I had heard only good things about this movie. I remember when I first saw the trailer for it I knew that I wanted to check it out. I never made it to the theater, but tonight a friend invited me over to his house and I finally got a chance to check it out.

I'm pretty sure that Jet Li's acting in this movie was not on accident (meaning that he knew what he was doing and how he was playing his part). If that is the case, I am: one, very sorry that I have seen a few of his other movies (english-dubbed or otherwise) that have given me a negative opinion of him; and, two, I am sorry that he has been type-cast for so long. This is the best movie I have seen Jet Li in and the best I have ever seen Jet Li act.

Sure, most people just like him because he is an amazing martial artist; however, in this movie it is much more than that. There is emotion, danger, feeling. Yes, he fights - but they are brutal. There are still the stylized, fluid elements - but this is a different Jet Li that is kicking and punching...it's not just for the camera and the cool looks, it's because he has to - to be free, to be the man he wants to be.

I'm not going to summarize this movie because I don't want to detract anything from it. However, I highly recommend it. You will not be wasting your time or money to check this out - it is truly superb.

The Importance of Context

In a day where so many people are simply opening a Bible and pulling quotes to serve their purpose, I have learned a good lesson this evening about reading Scripture in context.

As an example, I take the book of Esther. One might get to the point I was at, namely 9:5 - "Thus the Jews struck all their enemies with the sword, killing and destroying; and they did what they pleased to those who hated them." (NASB)

Wow. Those Jews were a bunch of sadistic killing machines weren't they? (Or, another possible interpretation of this passage could be that it is okay to kill those who hate us).

Sure - you can say that if you do not know the entire story presented in the book of Esther. And you can also make that assumption depending on the translation you have at your fingers.

First off, this is why the Jews were killing their enemies: "For Haman, the son of Hammedatha, the Apagite, the adversary of all the Jews, had schemed against the Jews to destroy them and had cast Pur, that is the lot, to disturb them and destroy them." (Esther 9:24, NASB)

Going a little further in the same chapter shows that the Jewish people had been schemed against and their enemies were plotting to destroy (kill) them. The people that they killed in that above passage were prepared to make the first strike. The Jews were defending themselves (see Esther 8:11).

Sure - I can see defense as an "honorable" excuse - but what about the fact that it said they "did what they pleased" to them?

That is where your Bible translation and a lack of exegesis might let you down.

With the word "pleased" - I checked a few translations I have and it is rendered as also being "would," "desired," and "pleasured." A check of a concordance - to see what the original language meant to say - does show that H7522 (the word in question) is derived from the word "delight" (H7521) - however, it is also defined as being "willed" and "acceptable." While I do not want to put words into God's mouth, or say my interpretation of this passage is correct - I think that, looking in context, it could be said that the Jews did what was willed and acceptable to those who had schemed to destroy them (while also NOT feeling the need to loot the enemies as they had planned to do the Jews - Esther 9:10, 15).

Why all this for a simple passage in a, probably, hardly read book in Scripture? Well, while I was reading, my first (emotional) response was the "Wow - that just does not seem right." BUT, with further study into the situation and what the text was originally trying to say - I realized that my original conclusion was incorrect.

Do we take this same process for interpreting those highly-read pieces of Scripture?

10 Hours Later.

Well, I just finished the assignment that was given to me about two weeks ago. As is normal with me and homework, I put it off until the absolute last day. I ended up spending about 5 hours last night working on it, and then I woke up this afternoon and put in another 5. Not too bad, but it really did frustrate me when I was done with all the text and I closed Word without saving (my last Auto-Save was well before all the work). Feel free to take a look at the finished work and let me know what you think.

http://rapidshare.de/files/6539231/TDurbin_User_Manual_Complete.pdf.html

Honestly...


this is getting ridiculous.

First it's Mortal Treason a couple weeks ago - and now Symphony in Peril has decided to not make music anymore. Worst yet, I'll probably not get to make any of those last four shows...so I'll never see them live. I'm not throwing a pity-party for myself (because this isn't really worthy of that) but...c'mon...how many more amazing bands are just going to quit?

Really?

My Camera?

I've been talking to my dad about photography ever since the "itch" became action. We've been going over prices, deciding what exactly I need in a camera (because I consider myself a pro, of course, so I need something great). Anyway - the camera above is a Fuji S2 Pro - it's the same camera that my dad uses (he actually is a professional). We'll probably end up going with an S1 Pro for me - because it has all the same features I would need and is about $200 cheaper. It's going to take getting used to a bigger camera with more manual settings because I've been using my Kodak DX6440 for a while - and it's pretty small and everything's automated. Either way, I'm still pretty excited at the possibility of getting a nicer camera and starting to become a better phtographer. I have high hopes to not only entertain myself, but to also share the beauty of this world with others. I also thought it would be an awesome ministry opportunity to take some pictures and then create inspirational/Scriptural posters, cards, etc. with the shots. Lord knows He has created awesome witnesses to his beauty in nature - I just hope to be "good" enough to accurately show that beauty I see daily.

For good measure - here's the S1 Pro:

October 15th Show


Tonight my father and I made the trek up to Louisville (Fairdale, KY exactly) and caught another show at Bulldog Café. There were about eight total bands on the bill (not all played, though) - but I went for the headliners: Bloodlined Calligraphy and Winter Solstice.

We went late specifically to miss a couple bands because I personally did not want to sit through hours of music from bands I had little to no interest in (not their fault, just personal preference based on some bad experiences with having to go through LONG concerts). Either way, we reached the venue and they were just now letting people in (or, at least there was a long line when we tried to get in).

The first three (or four, can't really remember) bands that led up to the headliners weren't really too bad. A couple of them were bands that my friend and I (had he been there) would have had a good laugh about because of their over-use of vulgarity. It's a long story, and kind of an in-joke, but we always find it amusing when bands think they have to resort to "F-in f, muther-f'ers, s, man, f-f-f!" to look cool. It has the complete opposite effect.

Plus (and I have come to the rightful conclusion that they are just going to be at almost every show I go to from now on) there were hardcore kids - lots of them. Tonight wasn't bad if you count the fact that no fights (I believe) were started. BUT (oh, there's always a but with these people) there was a table broken, a hanging light knocked around, one guy kicked (or something) in the face/eye, a bunch of people getting thrown around - and other general stupidity going on. (Note: I consider myself a "good" Christian - meaning in particular that I at least try to love everyone, no matter what. However, there is something about hardcore kids that just irks me...real bad. Like, "I could probably hurt these guys really bad if given the chance and a night-stick" bad. I'm sorry about these thoughts, but I'd have them a lot less if these people were respectful, cautious, and not at the concerts I go to.)

That aside - Bloodlined Calligraphy and Winter Solstice were great. The P.A.s were maxed out bad, so the vocals were not clear (or, really, audible). The sound, other than that, was fine - and it was cool to see a female hardcore lead (B.C.). I actually had seen her at the merch booth and she is a real cute girl - and seemed to be real sweet from the way she acted off-stage. She's kinda crazy when she gets the mic, though.

Definitely worth $7 a ticket.

It's Happened.

I guess some part of my father has finally rubbed off on me - because (although I have had a slight interest before) I'm really thinking about getting into photography (as a recreation, not a career). My dad has been a professional for about 25 years, and I expressed interest today while we were talking, and he let me know that he would be willing to teach me some of the "tricks" of the trade. I took some pictures today and he seemed impressed with what little skill I have currently - so maybe there is hope in the future.

I created a Flickr profile where I am going to be posting all of my pictures (the good ones, really) - so stop on by and let me know what you think. Honest opinions would be preferred, but if you have nothing nice to say - be gentle with my feelings at least :)

Thanks. Until next time...

Division.

I found a post on MySpace today that rang rather true about some issues I have seen lately (and have been wrestling with for some time). It went "Protestants do not like Catholics, and Catholics do not like Protestants. Then, we are dumb enough to debate in front of non-believers."

How true.

I happen to believe Paul when he speaks these words in Romans 12:4-5: "For as we have many members in one body, and all members have not the same office: So we, being many, are one body in Christ, and every one members one of another."

And also in 1 Corinthians 12:12: “For as the body is one, and hath many members, and all the members of that one body, being many, are one body: so also is Christ.”

We may have differing opinions and struggle with issues of faith, doctrine, interpretation, etc. – but we must lay hold (as believers) of the sound Biblical truths outlined above. We are all members of one body – that is, Christ – and as such, even in our differences, we must remain connected and must all work towards the purpose assigned to us. Meaningless squabbles will serve no purpose but to divide the body and cause further negative observations towards the Church.

So, how do we take hold of this obvious problem and begin to change?

I think we need to focus first on God, of course, and listen to the instructions given in His word – primarily 2 Timothy 3:16-17: “All Scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness, that the man of God may be complete, thoroughly equipped for every good work.”

We as believers need to take hold of the promise outlined here that the Word of God is in fact God-breathe, and can be taken as true – not only for the instituting of sound doctrine, but also for reproof, correction, and instruction. Rather than relying upon our personal opinions (which I personally can admit is often difficult) we need to rely more upon God and His instructions that He has outlined for us. I cannot think of a time in my life, aside from the human factor involved (meaning issues with interpretation, etc.) that the Word of God has proved to be either a nuisance or a lack of support/resolution.

Second, I think we need to focus on how we deal with problems between brethren. I love how Jesus outlines the “procedure” for talking to a brother about sin (which I believe can be applied to any situation between brothers that required open communication):

“Moreover if your brother sins against you, go and tell him his fault between you and him alone. If he hears you, you have gained your brother. But if he will not hear, take with you one or two more, that ‘by the mouth of two or three witnesses every word may be established.’ And if he refuses to hear them, tell it to the church. But if he refuses even to hear the church, let him be to you like a heathen and a tax collector.” (Matthew 18:15-17, NKJV)

Here we see that our problems between each other are not to become public matter. We first need to go to our fellow brother/sister and let them know there is a problem – using the above example of leaning on the Word for reproof, correction, and instruction. If that does not work, then we need to take the issue before a “gathering” and see what comes. Next, if the first two instances did not work, we take the issue up with the church. And, lastly, if none of these methods have proven effective, we consider that person to be to us as an unbeliever.

I also would like to mention here (as further support) that Paul himself followed this same method of private practice with issues:

“I went to clarify with them what had been revealed to me. At that time I placed before them exactly what I was preaching to the non-Jews. I did this in private with the leaders, those held in esteem by the church, so that our concern would not become a controversial public issue, marred by ethnic tensions, exposing my years of work to denigration and endangering my present ministry.” (Galatians 2:2, Message Translation)

If you’ll notice, Paul reveals exactly how he deals with inter-Church disputes. He does this in private so that any issues would not become public – leading to controversy and the possible compromise of his ministry. I ask now – how many times have our ministries been marred because of public disputes that should have been settled behind “closed doors” between brothers in a calm, Biblical fashion? I would imagine too many to count.

The only reason I feel so strongly about this issue is because I see it so prevalently in today’s society – and I have witnessed first-hand the damaging effects that dissension can cause. It is my heart to repair this damage and to rectify in some way the contributing forces to the problem. I do not think we can go wrong by following the Biblical examples above – but I know that we have gone wrong before by not following them.

Spot On Assessment.

You are Romans.

You have insight on what
it means to turn your life around
and try to live for God.
You really want people to understand
the deeper things of God,
but have a tendency to come across
as pushy and prideful...and at times,
maybe you are. But you know your
weakness and work hard at trying
to temper it with grace and compassion.

Which book of the Bible are you?



Honestly, if you know anything about me - this is accurate to a "T." (And just so happens to be my favorite book of the Bible, for some reason).

May It Not Be.

I really love the new C.D. by David Crowder*Band. For some strange reason, it makes me feel really good every time I listen to it. The work also has the effect of causing some rather deep insights to rise to the surface.

See, I went to my grandmother’s house the other day to solicit money from her for a charity walk I am doing. As is normal for our visits, we ended up getting into another theological discussion – this time about the depravity of man (yes, I understand your grandmother is not as cool as mine, it’s perfectly okay). I told her I have absolutely no hope for mankind – and she gave me an awesome picture of the parallel of our current situation and Noah’s time. She’s cool like that.

Anyway, as I was driving home, pondering our conversation – I was listening to David Crowder sing, “…There’s darkness in my skin, My cover’s wearing thin. I’d love to start again, go back to innocent, and never leave. I just believe things can get better. There’s nothing wrong with love, I think it’s just enough to believe…Rescue is coming…” And, then, all of a sudden, it hit me: The Cross of Christ Is a Stumbling Block!

Bear with me…

We are so caught up in our self-righteousness nowadays it almost makes me sick; partly because every now and then it happens to rub off on me, and partly because we have this wild assumption that we can get into heaven…by our own power, or good works, or some other ridiculous thing. This really irks me because I just happen to believe the only way into Heaven, without Christ, is this “Therefore you shall be perfect, just as your Father in heaven is perfect” (Matthew 5:48)

“But you’ve got to be kidding me, man!” I know – there are some really great people on this Earth who have to be pretty darn close to that whole perfection thing…aren’t there? I’d say, “No.” But I’m a pessimist.

If man is not totally depraved – these verses (Romans 3:10-18) have got to be lies: “There is none righteous, no, not one; There is none who understands; There is none who seeks after God. They have all turned aside; They have together become unprofitable; There is none who does good, no, not one. Their throat is an open tomb; With their tongues they have practiced deceit; The poison of asps is under their lips; Whose mouth is full of cursing and bitterness. Their feet are swift to shed blood; Destruction and misery are in their ways; And the way of peace they have not known. There is no fear of God before their eyes.” I tend to believe this wholeheartedly. If you don’t – do me a quick favor and switch on the news...it won’t take you long to see every one of these things currently being played out for the world to see.

To continue with the state of man, we’ll look at Romans 3:23 “…for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.”

What then do we say about our power – we the murderers, liars, thieves, and all around despicable people? “O Lord, I know the way of man is not in himself; It is not in man who walks to direct his steps.” (Jeremiah 10:23) We can’t save ourselves. It is not in us. (Remember from just a bit above this sentence what is in us).

Good news. Titus 2:11-14 “For the grace of God that brings salvation has appeared to all men, teaching us that, denying ungodliness and worldly lusts, we should live soberly, righteously, and godly in the present age, looking for the blessed hope and glorious appearing of our great God and Savior Jesus Christ, who gave Himself for us, that He might redeem us from every lawless deed and purify for Himself His own special people, zealous for good works.” God made a way for us to Him.

If that above verse is not true – if God did not send His Son to be a propitiation for sin – then the cross of Christ must be foolishness to you. It certainly has become a stumbling block for you – because you’ve got your salvation in hand…to think of needing some rugged execution device to free you must be preposterous.

“…but we preach Christ crucified, to the Jews a stumbling block and to the Greeks foolishness, but to those who are called, both Jews and Greeks, Christ the power of God and the wisdom of God. Because the foolishness of God is wiser than men, and the weakness of God is stronger than men” (1 Corinthians 1:23-25)

“For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God. For it is written: I will destroy the wisdom of the wise, And bring to nothing the understanding of the prudent.” (1 Corinthians 1:18-19)

“But the natural man does not receive the things of the Spirit of God, for they are foolishness to him; nor can he know them, because they are spiritually discerned. But he who is spiritual judges all things, yet he himself is rightly judged by no one. For “who has known the mind of the Lord that he may instruct Him?” (1 Corinthians 2:14-16)

“For the wisdom of this world is foolishness with God. For it is written, “He catches the wise in their own craftiness”; and again, “The Lord knows the thoughts of the wise, that they are futile.” (1 Corinthians 3:19-20)

If you look upon that wonderful Cross and see just wood and mock the ignorance of those blind-sheep who follow that fake, dead savior – you are the fool.

“For since the creation of the world His invisible attributes are clearly seen, being understood by the things that are made, even His eternal power and Godhead, so that they are without excuse, because, although they knew God, they did not glorify Him as God, nor were thankful, but became futile in their thoughts, and their foolish hearts were darkened. Professing to be wise, they became fools, and changed the glory of the incorruptible God into an image made like corruptible man—and birds and four-footed animals and creeping things.” (Romans 1:20-23)

But glory be to the Most High God – He has not left us in our sinful, ignorant, pitiful, self-serving, leading-to-death lifestyles. He has made a way.

“In Him was life, and the life was the light of men. / But as many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children of God, to those who believe in His name: who were born, not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor of the will of man, but of God.” (John 1:4 / John 1:12-13)

“No one has seen God at any time. The only begotten Son, who is in the bosom of the Father, He has declared Him.” (John 1:18)

“And this is eternal life, that they may know You, the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom You have sent.” (John 17:3)

What we were completely unable to do – that is, obtain an eternal relationship with the one true God – God did for us through the sacrifice of His Son, Christ Jesus.

“For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, lest anyone should boast.” (Ephesians 2:8-9)

And what should our response to this be?

“But God forbid that I should boast except in the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ, by whom the world has been crucified to me, and I to the world.” (Galatians 6:13)

And…

“For to me, to live is Christ, and to die is gain.” (Philippians 1:21)

And…

“Holy, Holy, Holy is the Lord of hosts; The whole earth is full of His glory!” (Isaiah 6:3)

You might not be taking all this in. I’ll admit – it’s really difficult for me, too. I’m all about earning my salvation – I have been raised with this mindset that I need to be justified by my own good works, that I am to chase after the glory of my name, that life (and I assume death) is what I make it.

Boy…have we been wrong for so long.

AHHHHHHH!

While that was just an attempt at a funny headline - it almost does mirror my current internal attitude (which has, of yet, failed to emit itself from my body). I will not lie and try to invite everyone to a pity party - far from it - I'm actually doing (probably) the best I have done since I started following Christ. God's great mercy has pulled me from the miry pit I found myself in not three months ago and I am currently standing upon the Rock. However, Satan (the vile villain he is) has decided to remind me of the truth that I am in the middle of a war, and even though I have sided with the victor - he intends to remind me daily of my struggles, my sins, my shortcomings.

I thank God, though, for the truth that in Christ I am "more than [a conqueror]" {Romans 8:37}. Through a (brief) study of Job, reading various interpretations on it, hearing John Piper's words on this very verse in Romans - I am beginning to understand and believe the role Satan plays in God's will. While it might (and seems to) be unbeknownst to him who battles me, his very attacks are governed by God. My Lord holds Satan in check and only allows him to work within His (God's) will towards my tribulation that brings perseverance, then character, then hope {Romans 5:3}. It is in my sufferings (and I do not equate the current perils I face to be equal with some my brothers and sisters in Christ are currently suffering) that I am assured of my justification and recognizing of my sanctification. In short - my goal to make "to live is Christ, and to die is gain" {Philippians 1:21} the song of my heart, soul, and mind must be accomplished through the refining of my faith through fire {1 Peter 1:6-8}. Today marks (as best I can measure) one year that I have been "aware" of the cross of Christ - so my journey continues and the road ahead of me looks and seems to be long and winding. My hope comes from God's promise to be always before me and always working towards the good of his servant who loves Him.

But what does the future hold? By the grace of God many more years of service to His kingdom; more time devoted to gaining/attaining/maintaining essential disciplines; exegesis, memorization, and preaching of the Word of God; further sanctification through the work of the indwelling Holy Spirit; a great increase in my faith, courage, forgiveness, mercy; and, hopefully, much more than I can either imagine nor anticipate. It's scary to imagine no growth in my future - but that just seems like a blatant lie cooked up by the deceiver - one in which I will happily depart myself if able.

Theological Seminary in about a year? Quite possibly - at least it continues to look more like something I'm being moved towards. I've had varying opinions about when I should enroll and what I should study. Again, by the grace of God I pray not only for guidance, but for His path for me to be shown.

"For I know the thoughts that I think towards you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope." (Jeremiah 29:11)

Could You Speak?

"In the year of King Uzziah's death I saw the Lord sitting on a throne, lofty and exalted, with the train of His robe filling the temple. Seraphim stood above Him, each having six wings: with two he covered his face, and with two he covered his feet, and with two he flew. And one called out to another and said, 'Holy, Holy, Holy, is the Lord of hosts, the whole earth is full of His glory.' And the foundations of the thresholds trembled at the voice of him who called out, while the temple was filling with smoke." (Isaiah 6:1-4)

Isaiah was able to speak - after witnessing the holiness of the Lord.

"Then I said, 'Woe is me, for I am ruined! Because I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips; for my eyes have seen the King, the Lord of hosts.'" (Isaiah 6:5)

What is our response to witnessing the holiness of God? Do we pass on by like it is of no value? Do we tremble and buckle and lay ruined?

I am ruined, Lord. I long to see your holiness. I pray for your glory to fall. May my heart shudder in Your presence and my body lay low in worship. Facedown at Your feet is where I belong.

What The World Needs Now...

...is Jesus. We need to come together as an undivided group of believers who constantly are facedown in worship at His feet. With a Father who was so glorious to send His Son to be slain, for love, our only reasonable response is to give our lives - without reservation - for His glory and His will.

Borrowing the words of John the Baptist, we need to "decrease" and our Lord "increases." He alone is worthy of praise and honor, and we need to be continuously giving of lives lived for that very purpose. There are some in this world who have never seen the magnificent face of Jesus Christ - so many souls who have never understood the wonderful longing to die to self and be completely submitted to an eternity knowing, loving, and worshipping God.

There are so many who are entirely too concerned with this-and-that to see something so great it is without words to be able to be described. We have all turned our backs to the glorious light that is our Lord Jesus - but by God's grace we are called back to see Him in all of His magnificence so that in all times we can have a rejuvenated heart that is overwhelmed with the urgency to spread the message of grace.

How intelligent is the man who denies self and removes the wisdom, power, and lusts of this world to seek something greater than life. The flesh will profit nothing, so let it die and live in faith through the Son of the Most High God.

What words are worthy enough to praise the living God - who was and is and is to come? How in all of the time that I have known and will know my God will I ever be able to understand His love? His ways are so beyond mine that I fall in defeat at the mere thought of trying to decipher them. My only chance, my only hope, is to be completely swept away and lost in Him. This world will give you trials and tribulations - it will prevent you and will force you to stumble. But rejoice! God calls you back up, even lifting you with His unquenchable strength. Never stay in the pit - but look up and praise the God who has never left you alone, who will never reject you.

He came into the world to open our eyes and we must force blindness upon ourselves? Come together into His bosom and receive - with great reverence - the promises He will keep! Nothing is more important - spend the rest of your life fighting the fight to see that!

*Note - This was originally composed a few months ago for another blog I had. If you've already seen it, my apologies.

i am...

...ignorant. I have believed so many erroneous claims about God, Jesus, His glory, His purpose, the Cross. I continue to buy into so many dead-ends and always seem to make the wrong decisions. I have fooled myself that the right path is ever before me. I’ve given up what is truly worth for trinkets and that which is fading.

…unwise. I thought myself to know so much and in turn proved my foolishness. I’ve made the choices to seek escape or degradation rather than running after the things that can open my eyes. I’ve missed the big picture and have lost the chance to enjoy true joy, happiness, fulfillment in so many ways.

…selfish. How many times have I made the Cross about me? There have been so many moments where I thought I had love pegged and knew without a doubt my illusion was it. I’ve tried to live a life of love and I can’t do it – at least not correctly.

…struggling. Sometimes my head is just above the water it seems. In so short a time I thought I had come so far – but I really just had a chance to fall back and far, a lot. Everyday is a battle and by my choices I am ill-equipped to fight it.

…hoping. There is a ray of sunshine. It is the Son. I wish I didn’t squint so much – or have to wear sunglasses. It’s so bright and I just don’t understand it. I think I can see it. He makes me feel so warm, I need Him to survive.

…longing. How my heart aches for truth. How my soul longs for unshakeable passion and a desire for nothing else but God. My fears and my self just keep getting in the way.

I wish I knew what to do. I wish I knew God the way I should. I wish I was the person I was meant to be. I wish I could stop using “I.”

What words are there that are even worthy to describe Him? Open your eyes:

“…I saw the Lord sitting on a throne, lofty and exalted, with the train of His robe filling the temple. Seraphim stood above Him, each having six wings: with two he covered his face, and with two he covered his feet, and with two he flew. And one called out to another and said, “Holy, Holy, Holy, is the Lord of hosts, the whole earth is full of His glory.” And the foundations of the thresholds trembled at the voice of him who called out, while the temple was filling with smoke.” (Isaiah 6:1-4)

You are. i am not.

A Collision (or 3+4=7)


I just finished the new album - and I have been blown away. It is absolutely apparent as you go through each track that David Crowder*Band has indeed grown as musicians and artists. Each of the songs just feel so...thick. As I went through the studio version for "Here is Our King," to "Wholly Yours," "Come Awake," "You Are My Joy," and "Rescue is Coming" I just felt lifted up and satisfied. This album is amazingly moving - it is a genuine experience to push "play," slip on the headphones, and just immerse yourself in a musical story.

Crowder's normal "odd" interludes are even a welcome touch, honestly. Even these little idiosyncrasies have grown in complexity and feeling since the last album. What might seem like a hindrance is actually a welcome touch the further you move through the album.

It's funny that just a few hours ago I laughed at this installment possibly being better than "Illuminate." And even as I listened to the first tracks - I wasn't quite sure what was going on - that I would eventually be swept away by a band that has matured and taken leaps and bounds with their newest C.D.

I was first introduced to David Crowder by my good friend John. I entered into fandom with a bit of reservation (partly because the first time I turned the C.D. of "Can You Hear Us" around and actually saw Crowder I freaked...but in a nice way).

I bought that C.D. at WalMart for, I think, $10. I listened to it, maybe once, and it kind of started to attract dust in my collection. It wasn't until Passion 2005 that I actually "fell in love" with DC*B.

They were (are) absolutely amazing live. I had the chance to attend a performance by the band during a late-night concert put on within Nashville (apart from the main worship they also led) and it was insanely FUN. Crowder is hysterical onstage - taking multiple breaks during the show to get the crowd laughing or to just speak his heart. It is truly a performance not to be missed. (Speaking of which, they're coming to Lexington in November...so I might get to see them before I head back out to Passion 2006).

I thank God for putting David Crowder on this earth - his songs are able to move me in such a distinct way - and I always love to worship with his music. I also would like to think my earthly father (*smile*) for getting me this C.D. during his trip to town today...it has certainly been a welcome gift.

In short: This could almost be considered a new David Crowder*Band. Go out and buy this C.D. - you will not be disappointed.

In or Out?

There are a lot of people in the world who are smarter than I am, or have a lot more time and motivation to search things out. Since it's been a while since I last updated, and I honestly cannot think of anything to post about - I'll share this nice little article I found tonight. Enjoy!

Are You In Or Out?
By Brian McLaren

Preachers like me sometimes mess up people like you. We do this unintentionally, believe me. We have the best of motives; we’re just trying to help you and protect you. But in spite of all our sincerity and good intentions, we do you damage nonetheless. Here’s how:

We want to protect you from getting drunk, so we tell you not to drink any alcoholic beverages. To protect you from that, we recommend you avoid establishments that serve alcohol. And just to be careful, we tell you to avoid people who drink alcohol too. In fact, we suggest you avoid excessive laughter … and discourage parties except those that tend toward the … well, boring.

We want to protect you from extramarital sex, so we create so much tension around the subject of sex that we keep you uncomfortable with your own sexuality and with the opposite sex. Maybe as a result of the sexual anxiety we create, you and your peers will become a tad uptight and overbearing, but at least you won’t get into overt sexual trouble, we hope.

We want to protect you from following the crowd and succumbing to peer pressure, so we either imply or assert that good Christians don’t go to movies, don’t listen to popular music, and don’t have non-Christian friends. We approve when you hide in safe church rabbit holes and protective Christian ghettos.

We don’t want you to become greedy, so we create a climate that suggests you shouldn’t make significant money, be extraordinarily successful, or maximize your earning potential. Middle class ambitions are OK. In fact, mediocrity of any sort is safest.

We don’t want you to lose your faith, so we say don’t read philosophy, don’t participate in culture or the arts, and don’t deal with tough questions and current issues. We suggest that you avoid the sciences (you might accept evolution), the social sciences (you might become sympathetic to criminals, homosexuals, and liberals), and the arts (you never know when you’ll have to look at nudes). Just recite easy answers and pat platitudes, even if doing so makes you feel dishonest, shallow, trite, or tortured.

In summary, we want to protect you from becoming “of the world,” so we tell you to not be in it. When it comes to the culture in which we live, we’d prefer you to be out of it than in it, into it, or with it.

…There’s just one problem: in trying to “save” you, we actually ruin you as disciples and probably damage you as human beings too. It’s amazing how patient you are with us, in light of the damage we do you. It’s amazing how patient the Lord is with us too, in light of the damage we do to His cause.

Seeing the Light
We’re right about one thing: Jesus called us to be not of the world. In other words, He wanted us to be different — like salt in the meat, not just meat; like light in the darkness, not just more darkness (see Matthew 5:13-16).

But we’re terribly wrong about the rest: Jesus did not want us to be out of the world — that’s unquestionably clear from His prayer in John 17. Like many preachers today, Jesus was concerned about our protection: “Father, protect them by the power of Your name” (vs. 11). But He didn’t try to achieve that protection by isolating His followers. He said, “My prayer is not that You take them out of the world but that You protect them from the evil one” (vs. 15).

How then are we supposed to be in the world — that is, the culture that surrounds us — without being conformed to it? There appear to be two guiding principles suggested in the next sentences of Jesus’ prayer.

Guiding Principle 1: “Sanctify them by the truth; Your word is truth” (vs. 17).
“Sanctify” means “make holy” or “make special” or “set apart.” Jesus is saying that His followers are protected not by isolation, but by identity. Their very identity as disciples means they understand themselves to be set apart, called to a special and holy purpose. They have received the truth of God’s message, and this truth has become for them a call to a higher, deeper, richer, more purposeful life.

How does this work out today? I go to a movie. In this movie there are murderers, sex addicts, thieves, and thugs. But even among these desperate and damaged characters, there are moments of tenderness, forgiveness, loyalty, honor, and honesty. As the story unfolds, I look just like everyone else sitting in the theater, eating popcorn and candy, but in my mind I am engaged in a kind of discernment that my movie-watching neighbors are largely oblivious to. Because I have been “set apart” by God’s message of truth, I evaluate all I see and hear in the movie by the grid of this understanding. The guy next to me is thinking, “Nice body on that woman … cool car … whoa, neat special effect.” But my mind is humming, comparing the action and values pictured in the movie with the message of truth I have come to believe.

Guiding Principle 2: “As you have sent Me into the world, I have sent them into the world” (vs. 18).
To understand the immense significance of the word “sent” in Jesus’ prayer, consider this scenario: There’s a seedy club downtown in a city near you. Inside the club, there’s a lot going on: illicit drugs being sold and purchased and ingested, alcohol being abused, prostitutes soliciting and being solicited, gangs tailing targets and planning violence. Let’s zoom in on four people who have just entered the club:

1. Jake is looking for a hooker. He’s lonely, desperate, and flushed with cash after succeeding at a robbery in another part of town.

2. Shannelle is looking for a dealer. She’s addicted to heroin and badly wants a hit. She was in treatment until yesterday, when she fled the treatment center for the streets. She has no money and is asking herself just what she’s willing to do for a hit.

3. Bruce is looking for a chance to show off. He’s got a lot of pent up inferiority and aggression and needs to impress somebody to feel good about himself. Maybe he can start a fight tonight.

4. Donna simply hopes to hook up with someone. I doesn’t matter if it’s a friend or stranger. She’s just lonely.

Entering the club, stepping over empty bottles and litter, are four others. They look no different from the rest of the crowd milling around on the dirty sidewalk:

1. Marcus is an undercover agent. He’s actually looking for Jake, hoping to make an arrest.

2. Charice is Shannelle’s sister. She’s trying to find her sister and convince her to go back into treatment.

3. Leshawn is an AIDS activist. He’s there to distribute literature to urge people to avoid high-risk behaviors.

4. Marie is a journalist, writing a story on the band playing on the stage.

What’s the difference between the first four and the second? The second group are there on a mission, and that mission makes them “in” the club without being “of” it.

Similarly, with our minds transformed by this sense of identity and mission, followers of Jesus can fully enter the world and fully live in it without being conformed to it. After all, we don’t enter the world alone; we enter and engage it with Jesus.

Consider Jesus
He was sent into the world as a seeker of lost treasures, a doctor to sick people, a friend to the friendless. Do we share His mission? He was an expression of God’s love for the world. Could we be called the same? He wants to redeem the cultures of the world (as is made clear in passages like Revelation 5:9, where cultural distinctives are maintained in heaven). Do we similarly respect and love the world’s diverse cultures? He attended parties and was accused of being a drunkard, a glutton, and a companion of tax collectors and other sinners. Are we too isolated to be similarly accused?

The Light Under a Bucket
In a way, we preachers are right: it’s dangerous out there. It’s easy to be conformed to the world, to lose our distinctive identity and mission. But we preachers are dead wrong when, instead of using all our powers and gifts to infuse people with a sense of Christian identity and mission, we opt for isolation. Whenever we offer the lesser option — and whenever you take it — we fail Jesus. We work against Him instead of for Him.

I am reminded of a story Jesus told in Luke 10:30-36. The story included nudity, violence, compassion, and kindness. It was about a robber who beat up a traveler, stripped him, and left him dead in the gutter. There were two highly religious people in the story who took the isolation option. They couldn’t bring themselves to come near the beaten traveler (whose bloody and naked condition would be rated neither G nor even PG). If we told the story, that religious pair would be good guys. Not in Jesus’ version.

In the Scriptures, there are two ways we can go wrong — one of them more obviously dangerous; the other more subtly. We can acclimate to the culture around us, be infected with its evil, and forget our unique identity, thus becoming “of” it as we’re “in” it. That’s obviously tragic. But we can also slide into another more subtle tragedy: we can isolate ourselves. Like the two religious men in Jesus’ story, we can isolate ourselves in our holy huddle, our Christian ghetto (which, by denying our mission, becomes anti-Christian). Rather than being servants in our culture — doctors healing the sick, seekers after lost sheep, coins, and sons — we can become an elitist clique, a frightened minority, angry critics, snobs standing above culture, and nerds cringing outside it.

Basking in the Son
But Jesus invites us to remember our identity and mission — to join Him in entering the world to celebrate all that’s good and to seek to transform all that’s not. That means that whenever we hear a good song or see a good scene in a movie, when we enjoy good art or good cooking, or when we find ourselves in good architecture or read a good paragraph in literature, we celebrate the goodness, enjoy it, savor it, thank God for it.

As Paul said, Christians aren’t to be sourpusses and faultfinders, because after all, “God has given us all things to enjoy” (1 Timothy 6:17), and “to the pure, all things are pure” (Titus 1:15). And where we see evil, corruption, dangerous philosophies, and destructive values, we call a spade a spade, because as Paul said, God wants us to learn to “discern what is best” (Philippians 1:10).

If we live with this sense of identity and mission, knowing who we are in the world and what we’re about, we will be truly alive. If we don’t — if we try to avoid sinful passions by extinguishing passion altogether; if we try to isolate rather than engage the world as followers and agents of Jesus — we’ll give further evidence to the world that although we throw around the name of Jesus, we don’t truly follow Him. Because His followers are not to be isolated avoiders, passionless nerds, or snooty critics. They’re to be in the world, into it, with it, engaged, alive, and passionate — not out of it.

Here’s how John put it: “Whoever claims to live in Him must walk as Jesus did” (1 John 2:6). Jesus was in the world, engaged, alive, involved, making a difference. To follow Him, we must do the same.

MySpace Bulletins.

I've decided to try and spread the Word of God via MySpace bulletins that go out to the people on my friend's list. I take the time to lay my heart out in them, establish what I believe, but - of course - to make sure that Scripture is included (for I would never want to lead a brother or sister astray if my interpretation was incorrect). I've included my most recent two below (and hopefully will include the rest as they are posted).

Title: Taste and See

"Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the man who trusts in Him!" (Psalm 34:8)

I have been so blessed by our wonderful creator. I was given a body and life. I was freed from my sin and given forgiveness by Jesus Christ. He is the Spirit that works in me for the glory of God - to do those good works He prepared in advance for me and to present me to our Lord sanctified, justified, and humbled by His blood.

Take this day to thank God for every blessing He purchased for you with His wonderful cross. Boast in nothing else! His lovingkindness is what sustains us, penetrates us, and has us cry out "Abba, Father - Holy, Holy, Holy is the Lord!"

"The Lord bless you and keep you;

The Lord make His face shine upon you,

And be gracious to you;

The Lord lift up His countenance upon you,

And give you peace.” (Numbers 6:24-26)

Title: What Is Love?

"Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things." (1st Corinthians 13:4-7)

And what are we to do with this love?

"Jesus said to him, ‘You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind.’ This is the first and great commandment. And the second is like it: ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’ On these two commandments hang all the Law and the Prophets.” (Matthew 22:37-40)

And how do we do this?

"But God forbid that I should boast except in the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ, by whom the world has been crucified to me, and I to the world. For in Christ Jesus neither circumcision nor uncircumcision avails anything, but a new creation." (Galatians 6:14-15)

Take a moment to search out God's plan for your life (He does have one). Immerse yourself in the confines of God's Word and in prayer. Trust the movement of the Holy Spirit in your life and see:

"...the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control. Against such there is no law." (Galatians 5:22-23)

Words of Encouragement.

I have met some amazing people since I opened my MySpace account. I stopped lurking on a few of the boards I am a member of and since then I have had some great discussions with people who really are on their way to loving the Lord with all their being. One such man, "OnTheAltar," posted this amazing piece the other day and I wanted to share it with whomever might read this blog. Please click here to go to his MySpace profile to send him a message or any feedback (send me word if there are any problems with the link). Thanks.

*Christ, I thirst for your righteousness, and your judgement in this world. My soul is dry, and I feel cracked and broken.

This world is so dark...so dead...and it seems to be sucking the life out of me. Before You, and before the sons of man, I lay down this mask called pride and I cry for help. I know not how much longer I can bear this world. I long for you to come back. I long to see you in all your glory, riding through the sky, as every created being bows to you - proclaiming that you are the Living and True God. That is not for me to ask though. You know Your plan, and it does not revolve around me. Help me to trust.

All around me, I am surrounded by sickness. Disease rips through my friends - my family. The stench of death sickens me. Like a crime scene, where the devil has had his way, it lingers in the air, haunting me all too often. We can see that lucifer has made the most of his kingdom in this fallen world. He plays with addiction and cancers as if this were a game. This is no game. This is all out war, and one that I am willing to fight.

But oh my Lord, oh my Christ, your child is weary. Despite my condition, the battle rages on. The enemy does not follow any code of honor. The weak, the sick, and the downcast hearts; those are the first to die by the dragon's claws.

If I am to bring you any victories, by Your spirit I must stand. By your love I must be renewed. Without your grace, without your healing, assuredly I will fall by the blade of the enemy. I will stand my ground. Only for You will I fight on this battlefield. And if this meadow should run red with my blood, be it only for You my King.

Though I've yet to see your face, I have tasted the fruits of your provision. I've seen the workers you have sent to plow the earth, that I might have living bread to fill my soul. My King, I shall tell of your good works to all who will listen.

The ink that covers my skin tells of Your story, speaking of Your goodness. This warpaint is placed boldly, only for You. I hide the scars on my battle-hardened skin, beneath these tattood images, only to tear at them time and time again. Why must I re-open the wounds that you have healed so many times? Help me to trust...to forgive myself...to forgive this world.

My King, my General, teach me your ways. I stand on this hill, which looks upon what seems to be a slaugher. I'll walk down this hill with confidence. You are supreme. You will be victorious. Despite what this world says, Your day is coming, and I plan on having an army behind me, loyal only to You, on that day.

Satan beware, hellspawn beware, your reign is coming to an end. You've taken enough of the people I love. Now, my God shall have His vengance. You'd be best bowing at the feet of my King. Make your peace with Him soon, for in all His grace for the righteous, He's certain to come with judgement for the wicked. My God will put an end to your kind.

There shall be no more suffering. There shall be no more tears. The former things of this world have passed away. Now only love. Only love. Only He who is love. *
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copyright - David Mason 2005. Please do not print, use or reproduce without my permission. Cheers.

Go To This Show, Too.

I posted yesterday about my desire to have every person (college-aged) in the world to go to Passion 2006. I wasn't lying, and this post in no way negates my previous one - there is really no reason why you shouldn't go to Passion...it's all kinds of awesome.

However, there is also no reason why you shouldn't go to the show outlined below. If you have the chance to see Norma Jean, Haste the Day, and Still Remains all in the same night - for $12 - you'd have to be out of your mind not to go. Seriously.